Plans for a Better future.

Argh i really need to get a hold of my life!Everything is in a goddamn mess.I'm fat,single and not doing so well in my studies.My social life is horrible.The only people i talk to each day are guys.
Quote from south park : This SUCKS ass!
And i mean it.Every single word.So now what I think I should do is to stop dwelling in self pity and get something done!
I promised to get thin before i can find a girlfriend and goddamn it i need one,BAD.
So before i go crazy with loneliness i bloody heck better get thin.
But the thing is to get thin,saying it is so easy.It's bloody hell hard with something divinely stupid in our body(nafsu untuk makan) which is exceptionally huge for me.I can't bloody stop eating.But I took the first step today.I stopped myself from buying supper.Thanks to that i feel both shitty and proud(for being goddamn hungry).
I'm not in a very happy mode now =(
I feel so lonely.I have no one to talk to.I jz reached this shithole,AGAIN.I wonder if I will ever be able to get rid of this feeling i feel.I dun like not having people around me.I cling on to them!!!!!Which of course is a bad thing.
Alright alright enough with all the complains rite?
Self note : Start by eating less,go jogging,play more sports,put on a MORE friendly face each day,smile to strangers(not all ~_~).
Hopefully things will get better in life.
AND owh my god i miss my mum and my family and my friends sooooo muchhhhhhh.
Hating you all for making me miss You all so much.I don't expect anyone to read this cause this IS supposed to be me pouring my thoughts and left as my thoughts.